Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Sick and Tired of being sick and tired

Enough already.

Monday night both babies developed wicked coughs, so yesterday I took them to their doctor. Little did I know at that taking two busy, fussy 10 month olds to the doctor by myself would be one of the easiest parts of the day. Luckily, our doctor is WONDERFUL, and decided that ordering them steroids would hopefully help things and prevent anything further from happening. Yea.

Seems simple enough.

And in theory, it was. Actually getting our hands on the meds was another story. Three separate trips to the pharmacy across town (hard to find a place that can compound it into a liquid and without alcohol) and I finally had my hands on them. I literally cried tears of gratefulness as I drove away. I was (am) SO worried about my babies, and I hated that the doctor had said we needed to get this med in them as soon as possible, and it was nearly seven hours later that I finally could even pick them up.

And today I am finding that while my doctor did warn me the steroids were likely to make the babies "irritable", I believe a more accurate warning would have been "Satan himself is going to borrow your children for awhile". They fuss and cry and reach for me to pick them up, and I do, and they instantly fuss and cry and reach to be put down. Wash. Rinse. Repeat. Oh. My. Word.

It's not even 11am, and they are down for their third nap of the day. The day started at 4:30am, and they've been tolerating less than 1.5 hours of wakefulness and then going down for 20-40 minute catnaps.



Oh, and to the creators of Airborne: You suck. You had me all hopeful last night that I was assaulting any bugs wanting to overtake me when I felt sniffly and chugged a class of your vitamins, only to wake up this morning all stuffy and hoarse myself.



Ahem.



In an effort to change my tone, I am going to take cues from Beth and Sarah, and focus on all that I have to be grateful for...


...I am grateful I only have to work 15 hours a week outside of the house, and that today is a day I am home all day, with no where to go and nothing to do except meet the needs of my babies...

...I am grateful I live in a country where I have easy access to doctors and medicine, for there are many mothers out there who have to watch their children needlessly suffer...

...I am grateful for the amazing health insurance our children have, for there are many, many, TOO MANY children out there without any insurance...

...I am grateful for my husband's job. Although it takes a leap of faith every single term trusting that God will provide, this term it allows him to not have to leave until 9:00am and to be home by 3:30pm most days...there are so many single parents out there, and I do not know how they do it. Lord, give them strength...

...although two tiny viles of medicine cost us $70 last night, I will not complain, but instead be very grateful God has provided the money to pay for that without hesitation. There are many in the world do not have that luxury...

...I am grateful that for the majority of their 10 months of life, Lucas and Abigail have been very healthy. Lord, please be with those parents who have chronically ill children...bring healing and peace and comfort and mercy...

...I am grateful for my sister, who was so gracious as we messed up her entire day yesterday. And who never once made us feel bad about all the work that she missed in an effort to allow both David and I to get to our jobs. Lord, be with those that don't have any family to help them...

...I am grateful for family and friends that will pray for us...

...I am grateful that I even have two unpleasable babies today. Lord, I can close my eyes and remember how much I longed to be a mother. Thank you for letting me be. There are many women out there who would give anything to be in my shoes...


Thank you, Father. I am truly blessed beyond measure.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Things happening on March 13th, 2011...


  • Our twins will be exactly two weeks away from their First Birthday.

  • I will turn Thirty Years Old.

And...

  • I will run my very first 5K.

The last bullet point has me freaked out the most.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Hours of entertainment

Dear Poppa Bruce,

When you installed the cat door for Lucy & Ruby...




...did you know how much fun it would be for me to play with?


It's one of my favorite toys in the house.

So thank you!

Love you!
Lucas

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Baby steps

One of Abbey's favorite things to do lately is take Daddy by the hands and walk around the house...



Our baby girl is growing pretty fast too...

Friday, February 4, 2011

Then & Now

Luke's first time in the exersaucer, July 2010




Luke, too cool to go into the exersaucer, but will now stand next to it and play, February 2011




Our baby boy is growing up fast...



Thursday, February 3, 2011

Well now this feels strange...

I'm home with the flu today. Fever, body aches, chills, general fatigue...etc. Luckily, today is David's day off, so he has been home all day. I called in sick to work and did not go in this afternoon.

Just now, in an effort to get some fresh air and give me a chance to rest, David bundled up the babes (it's cold here, but not blizzard cold like so many of you are dealing with) and took them for a walk.

And as he was heading out the door something occurred to me.

This will be the very first time I have been alone in our house since becoming a mother.

Crazy, huh?

There have been plenty of times where I have gone out by myself, and a handful of times where David has taken one baby with him to run an errand, but never in the last 10 months have I been alone inside this house.

And I am very aware of it.

It's neither good nor bad. Just...strange.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

One of those days...

Or a handful of them, really.

We've got teething and stomach bugs and fussiness and fitful sleep over here.

And my mind, body and soul are feeling worn thin.


But do you wanna know something about even the very hardest, most exhausting day of parenting?




It still beats any day of infertility.




As I crawl into bed at 8:37pm tonight, hoping to get more than the 4+ hours of sleep that I have logged the last 3 nights in a row, I am thinking of all the nights that I begged God to please let me be a Momma. And I can close my eyes and remember the emptiness and longing that accompanied that begging. And tonight I am thinking of all the women out there with that very same request on their hearts right now. If you wouldn't mind, would you say a prayer for some of my friends who are waiting to be exhausted by babies? Wonderful women, like Faith, and Amy, and Lianna, and Kelly. Women who will someday - please Lord, let it be soon - be amazing mothers.

Thank you.

And Good Night.