5 Things

1. The other day, while in a hurried frenzy to get ready for work, I somehow managed to graze the tip of my nose with my curling iron. Again. So now I am walking around with a giant red burn mark on the end of my nose. And yes, it looks just as awesome looking as it sounds.

Allowing this to happen in the first place takes some talent. Allowing this to happen twice in six months...well that takes a really special person.

2. Boudreaux's Butt Paste? Does not live up to the hype, in my opinion. This stuff, although pricey, works SO much better.

3. Yesterday at work on my way to my pumping break I stopped to chat with a co-worker who (politely) expressed her surprise that I was still needing to pump during a short time span of being away, leading to our discussion of how often I still nurse my twins. She (again, politely) questioned the fact that I still nurse on average 7 times a day, even though my babies are nearly 10 months old. I explained that according to my Nursing Bible I am right on track, especially since the babies are sleeping about 10 hour stretches at night now (God is still in the business of miracles people!) they need to nurse frequently during the day. I also mentioned that I am really wanting to hang on to both my supply and our nursing at least through one year, and breastfeeding often helps both. She (still, very politely) kind of guffawed this, stating the twins absolutely did not "need" to nurse so much. She told me stories about nursing her son, and how she slowly took away feeding sessions as he got older. I then asked her how long she nursed for. This was her response... "oh, I was only able to nurse for 6 months. I really would have loved to go through to a year, but my milk ran out"

Really?!? Did you just hear yourself?? Cauz if you did, you might realize that perhaps, just maybe, my current way of doing things might not be so crazy.

*disclaimer so I don't get a bunch of comments - I realize breastfeeding is different for everyone. Some babies and some Mommas are able to do just fine on fewer feedings at different stages. I just found the conversation ...ironic.*

4. This year I decided to take part in Beth Moore's Scripture Memory Team and will be memorizing 2 pieces of Scripture a month. I have always had a tendency towards fearful and anxious thoughts, and it has only gotten worse since I have become a mother. The idea of taking my mind and heart captive for Christ sounds incredibly inviting to me at this Season in my life, and I feel this will help me more actively hide His Word in my heart. My first verse I memorized this year is "May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, oh Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer" Psalm 19:14. Gotta decide today what my next one is gonna be.

5. So I am reading this book right? And the other day's reading started with this quote"Perhaps if one really knew when one was happy one would know the things that were necessary for one's life"- Joanna Field. The author then goes on to say "What is missing from many of our days is a true sense that we are enjoying the lives we are living. It is difficult to experience moments of happiness if we are not aware of what it is we genuinely love. We must learn to savor small, authentic moments that bring us contentment. .... Let us grasp the awareness of what it is that makes us truly happy. Let us consider our personal preferences and learn how to recognize, then embrace, moments of happiness that are uniquely our own."

So I laid there in bed, closed my eyes, and asked myself what things make me happy.

And do you want to know the very first thing that came to my mind?

Was it my son's contagious belly laugh and the way his eyes shine when it occurs? Was it my daughter's delightful giggle and the way she often puts her forehead to mine when she does it, like we're sharing a secret? Was it my husband's embrace and the way I slide perfectly under his chin when we hug?

No. Although those were a close 2nd, 3rd, and 4th. No. When I closed my eyes, and asked myself "what makes me really happy?" I saw this, friends...

The perfect cup of Coffee with Fat Free French Vanilla Creamer.

Yup.

It's okay, you can judge me. I judge me.

But I figure the fact that coffee with creamer obviously holds such a dear place in my heart makes it all the more remarkable that I gave it up for 9 1/2 months of pregnancy and the first 2 months of the twins' life.

And that's all for now.