Overreacting?

Friends, I need your opinion on something.

I can't tell if I am overreacting to a situation or not.

My "rational compass" is way off these days, and especially today since my daughter thought 4:20am was a fine time to start our day today. Sunday mornings are particularly stressful around here because David leaves early to set up the sound for the Praise Team, and I get myself and both babies fed, dressed and out the door. (My hats off to those of you that work full time and do this every single day... I couldn't imagine!). This morning it was pouring down rain, to boot, so why I even bothered to do anything to my hair is beyond me. By the time I had both babies loaded in the van (we don't have a garage) I was drenched.

Anyways.

I got to Church and Dave and I took the babies down stairs to the nursery. This is their 3rd time in there. The first time I stayed with them the whole Sunday, just to see how they would do. They did great, and didn't seem to care at all when I came and went from their sight in the room. So the next Sunday I just dropped them off and went upstairs. When I came down to get them after Church, Abbey was asleep in the swing and Luke in one of the worker's arms.

Cue this Sunday. We brought the babies down in their carseats, and I said to one of the workers "they fell asleep on the ride here, so they are kind of out of it..." and started to take them out of their seats. She said "well, why don't you leave them in there, and we can kind of rock them and see if they fall back to sleep?"

Sure, I thought. I doubted they would fall back asleep in a fully lit room full of toys and babies, but hey, why not give it a shot?

I went upstairs and sat through the service.

When I went downstairs after, I walked in to find Lucas still in his carseat - still even buckled in- and crying.

Not hysterical crying, but crying.

I went over and got him out and picked him up, and he calmed right down.

My initial reaction was to be really, really upset. I was pretty furious to find my son still buckled into his carseat, exactly the way I had left him almost an hour and a half prior.

But I didn't say anything. Why? Because for the last few months I have been instituting a 5 minute rule. I tend to fly off the handle pretty easily, and my mouth has gotten me in trouble more times than I can count. I have been known to feel strongly about something and fire off an email, phone call, or conversation in the heat of the moment, and then 5 minutes later realize perhaps I was being a little too passionate about whatever it was. Perhaps I should have taken a moment to mull things over a bit before I spouted off.

So I said nothing because I didn't trust what might come out.

I looked around for Abbey, and saw her in a teenagers arms. I said "how'd she do?" to which the girl replied "she did fine until a few minutes ago, she started fussing so we had to take her out of her seat".

So Abbey had spent the entire morning in her carseat too.

Really???

I had the girl hand me Abbey and I started to walk out with both babies in my arms. One of the workers said "boy that Lucas, he just couldn't decide if he wanted to sleep or stay awake all morning! He never did fall asleep!", to which I just smiled and then said I would send David back down for the carseats and diaper bag.

Then I walked upstairs with a baby in each arm, and chatted with people, sent Dave down for the seats, loaded the babies up,and came home.

And it's been more than 5 minutes, and I am still upset.

Am I overreacting?'

I know Lucas wasn't in any danger. I realize I don't know how long he had been crying. But seriously, is it too much to expect that I find my 6 month olds in a different spot then the exact one I left them in???

Now let me just say that we LOVE our Church. Love it. And the nursery is usually really well run, with pretty much the same rotating volunteers. I really do like all the women that work in there -or at least the ones that I know. It's a large room that is set up really well for babies of all ages, and there is copious amounts of bouncers, swings, exersaucers, jumperoos, bumbos, etc.

I will also say that there were lots of babies in there today. Probably 3 or 4 toddlers, and 4 babies. One of those babies was only 6 weeks old. That is more than a handful for 2 adults...but I also saw 2 teenagers in there helping too.

But I feel like if they were so overwhelmed that they couldn't even get babies out of their carseats to play (or, ya know, comfort the crying ones. I know, I don't know how long he was crying for...but I do know he was crying when I walked in. And no one was tending to him), they should have either figured out a way to get more help, or paged some Momma's back down to help with their own babies.

I always, always, ALWAYS say before I leave "please don't hesitate to page me if my babies get fussy or if you need me for anything, I really don't mind". (Our Church has one of those number paging systems where your number flashes on a screen during the service so you know if your kids are needing you).

So, friends, help me out here. Do you think I am just being a fussy new Momma here? Or do I have a right to be frustrated at the state in which I found my child(ren)? I really feel like I do.

I know the bottom line is if I am not comfortable -whether I am overreacting or not- then I should just keep them upstairs with me, or stay down in the nursery with them.


But I need some feedback here so I can determine how I want to handle it.

Thanks.