When you go a month without blogging, you feel an inclination to "catch up" on all that has gone on.
I'm gonna ignore that feeling.
The short answer? We've just been busy.
Someday I may get around to posting about our Thanksgiving and November in general, for memory keeping purposes, but not today.
I just had a tender moment with my daughter, and it's put me in a thoughtful place.
I want to remember the sweet rewards of saying Sure, Why Not?
I almost always go in and check on my babies before I go to sleep myself each night.
Sometimes, one -or both- of them will stir a bit and awaken.
Tonight Abigail awoke and said "oh hi Momma, will you lay with me a bit?"
I started to say "Not tonight Baby..." when I realized I didn't really have to turn her down.
Yes, she is a 3 and a half year old in a tiny toddler bed, and there is really no more room for a grown woman in there...and yes, I am aware that when I get up to leave after our cuddle, there is the risk of a full-blown-middle-of-the-night-tired kind of tantrum...and yes, there is a good chance if I give in to this request tonight, she will ask every night from now on.
If you give a mouse a cookie, right?
But I'd worked a very long day today, and snuggling with my baby girl sounded Heavenly.
So I crawled into that tiny bed and burrowed in with my baby.
I felt her warm, sweet breath on my face as she reached her tiny hand up and cupped it around my neck. I rested my hand on her chest and gave Thanks that her heart was beating
After a few minutes - just as I was settling into the idea that I'd stay there all night, even if it meant my jacked-up back would be in pain tomorrow, when she whispered "ok Momma, you can go back to your bed now. I love you."
I'm so glad I put aside the thoughts of possible consequences or my exhaustion, and just said Yes.